5 Years of Bleh. 13 Years of Bleh. X Years of Bleh.

I am wiped out and wasted. I'm tired and tired of being tired. Now it is the holiday season and I am back in the blahs of self pity and depression. It is so unlike me to be sucked into this mess. I prefer flat and stoic. I don't want these feelings. I know in my head that life is not always happy and that bad things happen, but I am tired of feeling chemicals that stroke the sad and bitter. Bleh.